In October 2023 I made the intention to release all remaining energetic, psychological, karmic remnants of abusive, controlling & ‘victim-perpetrator’ relationships from my system.
Little did I know where this would lead me…
The whole YEAR had been a non-stop transformational bumpy journey – all bets were off and anything disharmonious that had to do with Relationships got revealed in my current/past relationships and purged from my ancestry, childhood and past lives! For instance: in June and July, daily, for five straight weeks, I was releasing vividly reliving and integrating past lives of relational grief, loss, betrayal and abuse.
While I was heart-broken, shocked, figuratively “punched in the stomach“ – I had to remind myself that I asked for the full completion. Which wouldn’t be possible without physically feeling the unresolved emotional energy move through and out my body in order to gain full wisdom and healing from these experiences.
Today, I’d like to share with you something incredibly empowering concerning betrayal and manipulation – healing of this theme brought me the levels of power and peace I had not anticipated.
For me this one erupted with multiple mini revelations, and culminated with two people showing shockingly deceitful aspects of themselves that I – to my amazement – had been blind to! Now, I am not known for “falling for lies or tricks”, so this particular double-unfolding was very shocking to me…
This “blindness” formed in my childhood, had roots in my ancestry and past lives – and it made me unable to “read” the energy and intentions from certain types of people correctly.
These people shared characterstics: they held fear-based trauma, were highly intelligent, had beautiful solf souls, yet lacked stable power, so they took energy from others, because they forgot how to have their own connection to the Abundance of Universal Energy through the Earth or the Source. (All of them had some very draining energy patterns within too.)
It was especially painful to recognise that such people were around in my early childhood – and so I chose to “don a blindfold” in order to survive as a kid – and this is how I became an energetic/emotional/financial donor to certain people around me as an adult too!
In a deep healing that followed, I heard the words: ‘Parasitic connections’, and felt these relationships in the world: parents-children, partners, lovers, government authorities-population… It was initially sad to see the world for where it’s at, but the wisdom that came with this work made me find true peace around this too. The most achy part of this revelation was stored in my body as a female – it was curious that even though I held no personal energy around this, I felt a mountain of grief and rage from generations of women, who had been literally USED: emotionally, physically, mentally, energetically, spiritually, politically – treated as resources, rather than people.
When I integrated this ‘Big One’ – I felt a huge wave of Freedom and Relief run through my body, with multiple Light codes lighting up in a stable way of power and peace. This was True Freedom from a childhood mechanism of closing my eyes to certain types of darkness. By integrating this awareness, a part of me that felt alone and held me back from attracting MORE of mutually-beneficial relationships across my life – was gone, in place of it there is a steady trust and a body-felt presence of my own ‘enough-ness’ as well as of ‘soul family and friends’ – some already in my life and many coming closer each day.
As I started bringing these Codes of Freedom to clients in unhappy relationships at work, at home, with family – wonderful shifts began to happen in their lives too.
This is why I am guided to do a deep purification and soul empowering workshop 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆: 𝐅𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐨𝐦 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐓𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐦𝐚 𝐁𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐃𝐞𝐜𝐞𝐢𝐭, 𝐁𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐚𝐥, 𝐌𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐩𝐮𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 (𝐑𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐀𝐯𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞) 𝐎𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟕𝐭𝐡 + 𝐎𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟗𝐭𝐡 – dedicated to healing the deep aching energy of 𝙨𝙚𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣, 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙮𝙖𝙡, 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙩, 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨, 𝙨𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜-𝙛𝙤𝙧-𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙛. 𝙎𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙨 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙨 𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙗𝙡𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙛𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙀𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙘 𝙀𝙢𝙥𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩, 𝙑𝙞𝙗𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝘾𝙡𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨.
YES to Unshakable clarity and self-trust around choosing people who truly HAVE YOUR BACK in all areas of life: friendship, romance, partnerships, business, work teams, creative collectives, investment organizations, chose of healthcare, education and even places to live.
NO more tolerating, attracting, agreeing to toxic, parasitic relationships. (pushing down that uncomfortable feeling in your tummy or making excuses for them – only to be kicked in the stomach by these people again and again!
NO more being stuck in the past – in regret, grief, self-blame or resentment towards yourself or others for their limitations: this cuts down your vitality to bring your own dreams and desires into life.
YES to Re-calibration of your Relationship Standards: so you naturally reside in the world of abundant energy, inspiration, health, your soul goals and attract people who help you bring your dreams to life.
trauma-bonding, betrayal, manipulation, “usage” wounding – from childhood, ancestry, collective consciousness you might be hooked into, past lives (if you don’t accept past lives, this works at the collective humanity levels).
Light Structure of Thriving – now that your energy is freed up from the toxicity/pain of the past, your own potent power can be redirected where it was always meant to flow – to create your Soul-aligned Purposeful Life you love.
a Light Grid of Creative Resonance – to magnetise and increase the number of true mutually loving & enhancing connections in life. (Your lucky circumstances, plus soul-aligned people in life, who operate based on the principles of Light and not lack-consciousness.)
– did you know that a comet joined our Moon’s orbit and we now have two celestial ‘moons’ controlling the flow of waters on Earth? Which also means our awareness of our ‘shadow sides’ and the need for healing of the unseen is double this full moon. A perfect day for ‘Deep Cleaning of your inner House’.
To Explore working with me 1:1 click HERE and groupwork: HERE
Your Blood is a fluid – and we know that water holds information through a state called ‘structured water’*. All fluids in your body can hold codes of Freedom, Confidence and Joyful Connection with others, or they can be literally pulling you away from your own power of living in peace, clarity and success!
Where do we get these codes? A lot of our patterns come down – literally – through the blood. But also through the 1st Rite of Passage – Conception: when your spirit has its first experience of being em-bodied and connected with your Human family from that moment on.
In many ancient cultures, women KNEW exactly the moment of conception – and celebrated by welcoming the spirit of a baby. For the last 6-7000 years, people have focused on thinking and disconnected from their body intelligence – so most women aren’t aware they are pregnant for a while, and the celebration – if any – happens much later. This alone produces confusion for the spirit imprinting into water and can cause feelings of inadequacy, unworthiness and avoidance of life.
These patterns run like little programmes that loop in cycles: you repeat the same emotional-mental- behavioral pattern over and over and over again. And you think this is who you are.
In reality this is actually just an energy pattern you got used to/addicted to.
Depending on your family genetics and your experience of conception, you may hold some distortions in the fluids of your body, which in your daily life could affect:
– Letting Go of the Past
– Grief and Sadness levels
– Self-Worth
– Emotional Intelligence
– Embodiment (power levels of Life Force in you through Kidneys)
– Abundance and Receiving
– Stagnation (feeling stuck) and Renewal Patterns
What you could do to help you start changing the limiting codes you took on from your kin:
Learn to accept and feel your emotions fully – this is what ultimately sets you free from holding onto your own and ancestral unhealthy patterns. if you or your family are not good at expressing emotions, this is the biggest factor in a “backlog” of your familial past trauma. If you don’t know where to start – seek professional help/search online/start exploring emotional intelligence.
Learn to self-comfort – this is by far the most useful skill to help your brain rewire into feeling more safety when it comes to letting go and changing your programming codes to hold onto the past.
Create your own Affirmations (repeat daily) or a Ceremony where you declare that Your Higher Self (Your Truest Best Version of Yourself) is the only one in charge of your body, cells and DNA. Declare yourself FREE to make choices in each New Moment. Declare that from now on your Highest Version of you (Soul/Higher Self) will choose for your Highest Good how you respond to life.
To start breaking the addiction patterns in your familial thinking/being, use this affirmation each morning and evening: “I Surrender to the Power of Now. In this Now I grow my power to choose new ways of being, feeling and thinking. I let go of the past and open to seeing new possibilities for myself in life.”
Feel free to reach out for a Deep Dive into your personal Journey around this or join workshops/group work I do to help people release unconscious addictive patterns that hold them back and limit their growth and thriving!
To Explore working with me 1:1 click HERE and groupwork: HERE
Whenever we’re about to make any serious changes in our lives, our old patterns (held in the basic survival part of our brain and nervous system) are coded to protect us from any potential danger. So they put up all types of resistance to protect the nervous system from overwhelm. However, this is why change can be so hard and ultimately this protection doesn’t work if you wish to keep evolving.
The trick is to learn to:
A ) distinguish your Heart Truth from your old fear-based emotions and thoughts;
B ) soothe yourself when you get triggered by change, and not let the fear (anxiety, sudden doubts and odd tiredness or weird external circumstance*) stop you – and keep taking the actions you know in your heart are good for you
This is very hard for all of us to master.
It takes knowledge and practice to understand this for yourself and then learn to apply it every time you’re about to do something very new
This is why a lot of people have some:
Procrastination
Freezing
Overwhelm
Poor planning
Forgetfulness
Sudden doubts
Overthinking
*and even external events might pop out of nowhere to seemingly tell you ‘no’
When I lead my clients into their full unfolding as their most authentic powerfully soulful selves, these are some of the most life-changing skills I teach. This way my clients are finally able to make the changes they desired for so long but struggled to!
All guilt and self beating-up get dealt with, drama reduced and overthinking subsides. Life is more manageable and the person can now also release habits and beliefs around not being good at “life” or changes!
If this is something you struggle with and would love to learn to grow through – get in touch through the Form HERE or Book a Free Call with me HERE
If you’ve been a little more tired, flat or maybe more introverted than usual over the last couple of days – welcome to the new moon this month!
My invite would be to surrender to what your body is calling for, and REST as much as you can or choose to make time for. To acknowledge your NEEDS as something you are born here to have – not to overcome but to evolve THROUGH.
I’ve come across a repetitive theme of ACCEPTANCE this month: acceptance of all we are – likable or not, of our HUMANNESS, of all that life presents us with.
Because when we do – we accept important aspects of Reality, we unite fully with all the energy and pathways to manage our vitality for our best creativity and joy here in life.
With this in mind, going back to a new moon being a “new beginning” and a clean slate, being completely dark (with the bright sun right behind it) – this Darkness becons us to own and release/transmute our shadows. To own the shadows is to own all you love or dislike about your inner experience and you. So you are landing into Reality – both seen and unseen, having Truth on your side. So that you can stop using up precious energy to hide, pretend, project or run away from something inside you’d rather not have. The New Moon welcomes us into a Deeper Truth: the Unknown, New, Sacred and Desired – in simpler and clearer ways.
I wonder how your expereince of the New Moon has been (the latest one or in general)?
The picture you see here was taken 6 days after my beloved grandmother passed on. The insights, peace, clarity, gratitude and love moved through me with such beautiful intensity 💗- right after very deep grieving (involving forms of disbelief-denial, regret, shame, confusion, overwhelm, sadness). When we embrace that whatever life offers us is here to serve us – magical things can happen.
I’d love for all of us to move through fear, confusion and pain associated with loss.
Here are some quick Guidelines on working with Loss & Grief:
𝟭. “Get Rid of ‘I can’t handle it!’: the biggest block in moving through emotions is the belief that they are bigger than you are. This isn’t true as you are the one holding the space for them – so you must be bigger!
𝟮. Lean into it: don’t run, delay or deny what you feel – the more you allow yourself to feel and even invite more in – the faster it passes through you.
𝟑. Remember it’s meant to finish: kick “this is endless” thoughts aside – emotions aren’t eternal, everything changes.
𝟒. Look for ‘goodies’: we were taught a lie about “unpleasant emotions” e.g. they hurt us & have no further use. If the Universe is kind, then what you feel has a value. Look for that value. You WILL find it.
𝟓. Higher Power: studies on longevity & happiness show that people who accept there is a Higher Power, deal with adversity and regain balance much faster.You don’t have to be religious or spiritual to open your mind to the Greater Intelligence of Nature, which includes cycles of life.❤️
Feel free to share below if any of the points above resonate with you the most.
If you would like to work through loss: the course on ‘Moving through Loss into Joy and Confidence’ is available online (check workshops on this website), and if you act before 26th of March 2023, you can still join some of the sessions Live in the course.
If you would like some help with moving through challenging emotions into peace, contentment and even joy 1:1 – you can book a Discovery Call to see if I can assisst you with that.
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