Being Too Much is something I was accused of from a young age, so I grew up with a sense of internal guilt for upsetting others, second-guessing what I say to people, worried to be seen as foolish in front of “authority”. There was a lot of inner judgement, crippling anxiety, fear of being wrong.ย
I remember ๐ค๐ฃ๐ ๐ฅ๐ค๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐ข๐ค๐ข๐๐ฃ๐ฉ in my twenties: during a shamanic course the teacher strutted around and detailed his relationships with women and one “bitchy” supermodel! ๐จ๐ฅต In my heart, gut and head I knew this wasn’t what I signed up for, but I stayed out of “politeness”! ๐ It got worse when I asked a question and was told โWhy don’t you get it? Everyone else has got it?!โ – I felt hit by a wave of shock, anger and overwhelm! I wanted to say that chatting about exes during class and putting students down was unacceptable! ๐คฌ… but I couldn’t find clarity and courage…
I left the course that day – angry and unexpressed but with a decision that I cannot allow my fear and self-judgement keep blocking who I am.
The path of change from then on was gradual, but I now know that
๐๐๐๐ฃ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ฉ๐ช๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ข๐ฎ๐จ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ – ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐.
Below are The Key Points of Change that ๐๐ค๐ข๐ฅ๐ก๐๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ฎ ๐๐ก๐ฉ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ก๐ก๐ค๐ฌ๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ข๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐๐ง๐ค๐ข ๐จ๐ข๐๐ก๐ก & ๐ฌ๐ค๐ง๐ง๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ค๐ฉ๐๐๐ง๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐ง๐ช๐ก๐ฎ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ง๐๐๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ค๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ค ๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ค๐ข๐๐ค๐ง๐ฉ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ ๐จ๐๐ฎ:
1. ๐๐ฃ๐ฃ๐๐ง ๐พ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ค๐ง๐ : Our mental foundation is constructed in early childhood. When I got it, I could no longer be mean, nasty or angry with a part of my mind that was effectively a toddler! This brought on a lot of compassion, understanding and kindness into my inner world, helped resolve inner conflict and greatly sped up release of unhelpful feelings, beliefs and behaviours. It helps to start Inner Child work with somebody who can hold space for you and guide you, as it feels safer to connect, share and resolve trauma and hurt.
2. ๐ผ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ช๐ง ๐๐ช๐ข๐๐ฃ๐ฃ๐๐จ๐จ: Whatever I sense and feel (peaceful, sad, angry, etc.) is my interaction with life as a human. I was surprised to learn that I really judged my human experience, I was stuck resisting what I needed to live and learn. So I started releasing my attachments to feeling only “Good & Mighty” by reassuring myself that it’s safe to feel bad and that everybody feels how I do sometimes.
3. ๐๐๐๐จ ๐๐ค๐ค ๐๐๐๐ก๐ก ๐๐๐จ๐จ: When we resist how life feels to us, we hang on to “incomplete” experiences which block us from feeling something new. When I realised emotions were always passing experiences because one experience invariably follows another, I stopped being afraid to feel and allowed my feelings to naturally resolve, because it’s always a temporary “ride”! :)
4. ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐๐จ๐ฉ๐ฎ: Doing fake positivity doesn’t let us resolve anything, because we can’t deal with something that’s not real! Only when I learned to acknowledge and accept how I felt, was I able to allow fear, anxiety, worry to move through me and dissolve, thus freeing me from having these as my stuck, habitual feelings.
5. ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ค๐ค๐ก๐จ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐๐ค๐ช: I wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t found teachers, healers, coaches who have resolved for themselves what I was dealing with into harmony and mastery! I got both the insight into what’s holding me back and got help resolving it.
I hope this has inspired you or gave you some insights! :) Feel free to comment below regarding which point resonated with you or surprised you the most!
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*Disclaimer: the informaiton in this and other posts on this website are my personal expereinces and they are not a replacement for psychological or medical advice or diagnosis.